Angel talks about her first ambassador shoot

I just can't. Not like that. I am not a "model" I am not flawless. I am not always confident. Actually, when I became a Silk + Salt ambassador. I quickly went from excitement to fear to nerves. Hold the phone. I just agreed to take these beautiful artistic boudoir photographs AND I am going to post them on line AND I am going to help represent this empowering, sexy, badass brand? Um, What? 

The week before I did some shopping. I found cute heels. Fishnets. I also found an amazing sugar coconut scrub and spent the weekend buffing, shaving, scrubbing a million times. I put a gloss on my hair. Laid in the tub. Did an amazing facial mask until my face was smooth and fresh. I practiced weird smiles and demur looks in the mirror. Trying to look relaxed when the butterflies were going crazy saying I could just say something came up and I can't do this. 

 But that is not the way to live. So I grabbed life by the ass. I woke up the day of the shoot feeling fine. I had some coffee. I double checked my bags and off I went. I blasted some sexy music. Sang at the top of my lungs. Pulled up the studio. And..... sat in my truck for 20 minutes with my best friend on the phone. I am not doing this. I was nervous! I am trusting someone else to do my hair and makeup. I don’t know how to pose. The other ambassadors are amazing. But they are so gorgeous. How can I do this? After a stern talking to and a promise of whiskey. I finally went in. 

Pamela greeted me with her sweet smile and a hug. I went off to see EJ. We talked about how I usually do my makeup and I told her honestly to do whatever she wanted. I trusted her. She was great. We chatted as she was working on my make up. I talked with Pamela and the other ambassadors. My nerves were still there but I felt comfortable. Then I put on my fishnets, my cute booty panties, and a corset. Took a deep breath and went to start my session. We started pretty easy. I was given some great directions. I made jokes. Because thats what I do when I am nervous. Mateusz showed me how to pose. He would tell me when I was doing great. He showed me some shots and I was blown away. That awkward angle I stood at with my booty pushed out and my hips in another direction with my back arched? Hello curves! I was feeling reserved at first but it is like a siren was brought out and I was ready for this. I was smiling. I was listening. I felt like I was meant to be this gorgeous vixen taking these amazing photos. It felt like a million photos were taken. I was hoping for just a handful of good ones. I packed up, hugged everyone and headed home with an extra bounce in my step. 

Then the sneak peeks came in. Hello Beautiful! That was me!! I fell in love with myself a bit more with each one. They were all amazing. Seeing each new one gave me a little thrill. I saw myself differently in every pose. I learned to embrace the things I always tried to hide. Each session I still feel nervous, don’t get me wrong. But I also feel empowered. Stronger and so damn sexy too.